things i want to do before i die.

1.participate in a political rallly.
2.become a vegetarian.
3.live in london.
4.help the environment.
5. go to japan.
6. ride a gondola through venice.
7.take a cake decorating class.
8.write a novel.
9.paint a picture in oil paints.
10. sew my own summer dress.
11. work at a coffee shop.
12.get to my ideal weight.
13.live in ocean beach, san diego.
14.become a photographer.
15.hangglide.
16.go to college.
17.contribute to charity.
18.volunteer at a hospital.
19. adopt a pet from the animal shelter.
20.learn to build computers.
21.change a flat tire.
22.have a spa day.
23.learn how to cook.=]
24. get another tattoo.
25. get my lip pierced.
26.get surface peircings.
27. dye my hair purple.
28. learn to speak french, italian, and german. 
29.do well on my SATs.
30.read the entire works of shakespeare.
31. learn to play the violin. 
32. make a chalk mural during the summer on the sidewalk with crayola sidewalk chalk.

.... thats all for now.

 fagggart.

i dont know why i feel the need to start every entry with some profane language.
my feet stink.
i wish that one of this was going on right now.
i just dont understand how one person in one night can fuck so many people over so bad. so so so so bad.
it's sooooo fucked.
 i reallly wish that those two would quit doing this.
actually make that one.
iwish that HE would quit it.
QUIT IT.

fuck this.



Best friends means i pulled the trigger, best friends means you get what you fucking deserve.

have you ever wondered what it'd be like to be deaf?
it'd be ghostly.
it'd be calm.
it seems so strange.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I'm so confused. I'm so torn. why is this happenninggg.

fuck the world, yeah yeah, kill em all.

so, i bought across the universe, and im so so so excited to watch it.
it's finally spring break and i'm in one of those wierd moods.
I'd really like to road trip to seaside.
I'd really really like it if i could road trip into the past and stay awhile.
the freshman were hiking by my home today. i almost hit the boyscouts whilst driving TWICE.
I watched I am legend with austin last night and i really really liked it.
i kindof want to read the book now.
I feel like driving fast and aimlessly while listening to Anti-flag with the sun shining bright and not a care in the world.

if only. if only. if only. if only i'd forget.

ohhhhh goood god is hard to find.

i feeel like shit, my head feels like it's going to just fall off.
so that's five times.
five times I can be called a homewrecker.
fuccckkked up. but that's fine. whatever.

I want to see: doomsday, across the universe.
yiikes.

i think it's so strange.
everything's so strange.

anythign anything to keep me breathing.
this situation, it intrigues me, but im not especially sure i should continue.
it could be troublesome. 
but im not so sure i could stop here.
i guess I'll have to see it all the way through.
maybe. not all the way.